Dance To The Rose of Feeling

The first step of my Dream

2011-12-28T06:41:00.000-08:00

Hello :) well basically today i went for the Alpha Ent audition

with my 2 lovely n Mr.Yk (one of my lovely bf)

woke up at 7a.m and went to have breakfast with them

and head down to MDIS with Yk's car.

1127 that my number tag and i sang ma boy from SISTAR.!!

there like 900 ++ people there,

and i from 9a.m to 2.08pm is like 5 hours!!!

And my heart is like pounding non stop is like it really going to came

out from my mouth.

well my two lovely and yk went off to play some game

and left me there :(

The curious part where hit me was when i was singing,

everyone turn around look at me

even the Miss hwang of the judge who usually look at the cam

and she look at me with a shock look .

i'm scare that i pronounce the Korean words into a negative words.

oh well everything had end

hopefully i could get short listed and went to Korea for training!!

2011-11-22T06:02:00.000-08:00

How long time do i have to wait?

Waiting and waiting that all i do,

i feel like a fool,

is not that fun to play with me, do you know that?

it hurt alot,

i'm not a tool nor a toys,

i'm a HUMAN.

A human with feeling and pain.

i just want a truth but you didn't told me.

Even though i remember those hurtful memories

i pretend that i didn't know it,

why why why do i have to bear this pain?

why can't anyone share with me?

why?

18nov2011

2011-11-18T04:22:00.000-08:00

Try not to break down,

but there isn't anything i could hold on,

i'm at my own limit.

Without you is like,

Day without a sun,Night without a moon.

It so dark,felt like i'm all alone,

if only you are here,

i would want you back,

you are the one who show me the road i should take,

your words give me the strength to carry on,

tell me what should i do,

i'm lost.

2011-11-14T03:43:00.000-08:00

Christmas Is coming to town very soon!!

All those decoration light along the street

B.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l

Dear Santa i don't need any present

all i want is a simple wish

i hope i could pass my

Audition on the 21-22 December.

I want to earn it by myself.

Waiting for them is like waiting for

snow to fall on the summer

which is seem to be impossible.

CHRISTMAS 난 널 사랑해!

(NAN NEOL SARANGHAEYO!)

2011-11-09T02:58:00.000-08:00

I always wonder myself with this question

"Does Fairy Tales appear in my world?"

Does it only exist in fairy world?

oh fairy Godmother, Cinderella,Peter pan & etc

i wish it were in my world..

so i could wish upon the stars,

with one simple wish.

2011-11-08T05:49:00.000-08:00

Truth/False

사실

The truth is i always had a feeling that u guys are

drifting away from me.

but why? can u tell me?

Do u noe i believe in you?

Why can't you all tell me?

TengYeon oppa? unnie?? waeyo?

it feel so cold..it so sudden..

im worried that u will leave me..

please dun leave me like how they do..,

jebal..jebal..jebal...

i wanted to talk to u guys so freaking much

but you all dun seem to pop out like it use to be.

maybe u guys might sick & tired me?

거짓

The False is what u guys think about me

cause i have not change at all.

if u trust me enough u will see it.

maybe u guy hang out with new fren

may think i change? but aniya..

im not trying to stopping u guys having

new friend. please dun misunderstand it.

돌아오시기 바랍니다

2011-11-07T00:45:00.000-08:00

We name ourself as the ThreeSome.

intro:

Jasmine-Miss devil-20 sept

Jacqueline- Miss angel -14feb

Fransisca-Miss Gundu-14 feb

I hope our friendship could stay till we are old.

no matter what happen i'll will aways be their SUN :)

What is life?

2011-11-07T00:35:00.000-08:00

what is life?

To me life is like a story book,

it full of chapter by chapter.

A book content countless chapter,

so i was wondering how many chapter i have right now?

Which chapter should i avoid so i wont get hurt?

which chapter i could fulfill my DREAM.

which chapter hold an important in my life?

which chapter will be my last chapter?

who will be in my chapter?

while all those question mark i have to find it by myself..

Time will take me to the answer which im seeking for.

2011-10-09T04:11:00.000-07:00

people told me it was impossible,im dreaming so much...

but i dun gib a dame cause this is me and what i want for my future..

ohhh why is life so hard?

L.O.V.E dun seem to be exist in my life...

i cry so hard..i really do...those words in those tears

can u sense it?

you make me believe in love

but you ruin it..

oh why why why why waeyo??

i try my very best to forget you and i did..

for now on Dream is im thinking of..

2011-08-13T06:39:00.000-07:00

memory flashing back in my mind,

is hurting me, heart is aching,

mind is repeating the scene..

god pls save me..i dun wan to suffer anymore..

i dun wan to cry anymore..

god pls hear me out..

i just want a simple life with a simple dream..

everyday every night im tearing out non stop

i dun wan to continue anymore..

im tired.. take away my sorrow, my sin,my tear..

2011-07-22T21:28:00.000-07:00

i had a very nice bro who love to tease me

protect me, make me laugh and make me tears..

ever since he is busy, i dunno why

i sense that we are drifting apart..

i miss the old times..

like what people said,

fun time past very fast..

right now is gonna be aug soon..

will you come for me? will u break ur promise?

im waiting for you bro...i really dun wan stay in here

i seriously hate here...

there one guy making feel so scare..

he so pervert...

im scare bro...although

im not ur real blood sister ,

im sorry bro i have rely on you too much..

making u feel like staying away from me..im sorry..

2011-07-04T08:09:00.000-07:00

Feeling so down and i dunno who can i approach..

i cant let all my feeling out to jeremy, oppa and sis

they hate people who emo...

i dun wan them to hate me...

and

they are busy too..

dun wan disturb them...

i have to act like nothing is happen..

fransisca you can do it..

for ur own future..ur dreams.

Emotion of mine hold on till the very

end..

Dont like people u are pathetic girl...

Act strong n brave..

im sure i can do it..

i wont gib up till the very end...

2011-06-07T04:09:00.000-07:00

yeah tt right..everyone leave me..

yeah leave all you want...

do u noe how much u hurt me wen u going to leave me

please think of those feeling...

it really hurt...

i had enough...really..

i hate my family i hate this world i hate everything tt is around me

i hate MYSELF TOO!!!

2011-05-31T04:43:00.000-07:00

my mum just use a belt to hit me..

bro...where are u...take me with you..

i cannot stand it anymore...bro...

sis...where are u all....

im lost.....

2011-05-20T04:59:00.000-07:00

My hope is still burning~!!

Minwoo band gonna debut next week

and all the girls are crazy about them~

i love the mv..and de way minwoo dance seem so

serious..wen he serious he look so

handsome ~!!

hahha *blushing*

BOYFRIEND band will be famous too

dun worry naa~

i will also support ur band too!!

BEAST! B1A4!!BOYFRIEND!! HWAITING~

first love tt lost

2011-05-17T05:56:00.000-07:00

who can i get help with??

who can i tell him/her my feeling

that is deep down me...

who understand how i feel??

why do you do this to me??

why are you like this to me?

what am i suppose to do

so that i can have your love?

where are you??

i just dunno what i can do..

im lost..

im like shouting for help yet no one can hear me...

my tears is warm n salty..

it hurt right now..

I DUNNO WHAT CAN I DO RIGHT NOW...

2011-05-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

Will you be alright when I'm gone?

i dunno wad to do..

i always told myself

is ok fransisca, he a very busy guy

tt why he nvr chat with u

but another voice told me

if he busy, why does he still talking to his fans??

i said..as a celeb is like this..

they need fans n make new frens

another voice told me

is up to u..im not going to care..

well end of this

wenever my fren told me this:

hey u have a cute and handsome brother

so lucky of u!! i find myself

very lucky to have my bro

is fate to bring us to noe each other

although we not real sis n bro

but i treat him as my real bro..

i still will tell him

everything tt keep inside my heart

cause i trust him

although he like to tease me but im find with it

thank you bro

who been here for me..

although u are busy

with ur training

yet u still come talk to me

i appreciate it alot ♥

2011-05-09T06:28:00.000-07:00

why why why?? why wen i talk to u, ur reply so cold? why why why??

do u love me?? i love u, do u noe??

why ur nvr talk to me...im missing u so much...

heart aching? crying over you? do u noe??

i just wan you to talk to me..

if we stop talking to each other

one day we will go our own ways..

i dun wan tt to happen...

has any of my words reach ur heart???

pls let it reach...

im freaking missing u!

2011-05-05T10:13:00.000-07:00

Ite appeal fail...

den wad am i going to do??

i dunnno...oppa im sorry if i make u angry

i did not noe i will make u angry cos im not mature enough

i try to be mature...im sorry...

im sorry once again...

i will change...

2011-05-04T02:38:00.000-07:00

Wen i recieve a fb inbox message i was very happy

i thought u forget abt out first month anniversary

but you didn't..im glad..

dear boyfriend, do u have any idea

i missing you so much?

you didn't talk to me at all

u been talking to ur fans..

i noe fans is important..but

can u just talk to me for once..

Do you treat this relationship

seriously or u just toying it?

i dunno at all

im just feeling insecure..

this feeling suck..

wen i talked to u,

you reply me so cold..

why naa??

2011-04-27T03:36:00.000-07:00

Each days has past, i wish my heart has stop aching but

it wont stop..

i hate my family..

i dun wan to stay in this house!

it going to tear apart!!

my heart is aching none stop!!

oppa T.Tunnie!! T.T

2011-04-26T04:35:00.000-07:00

TIME~
time would heal those scars of mine..
would it?? i hope so...
its so painful...
time fly fast please..
why do i have to continue suffer this way??
im just a girl who wan to fulfil her dream
is it a bad idea?? no rite??
u let me born with a dream so tt i can fulfil it rite??

LOVE~
love is as sweet as a honey
it let u noe tt u are being love
it let u smile without any reason
it make your heart beat very fast *bomb bomb bomb!!*
it make ur face red as a tomato~
tt me wen im in love :D

2011-04-25T03:54:00.000-07:00

what can i say for today tt happen to me??
im totally hurt and wen i need u, where are u my bf??
i agree tt im jealous this afternoon
this is normal cause you are my boyfriend..
im jealous like hell...and my heart break
into thousand of pieces..do u noe tt??
and i decided to deactivate my fb
cause im being accuse by oppa fans..
i cried..i did not do such a thing..
anyone believe me?
this is so unfair to me..
nobody come n help me
cause im just an ordinary girl??
i have human and i have feeling too
i will feel hurt...
why is me??
why?

2011-04-24T05:34:00.000-07:00

Dear bro, no matter wad happen
im here for u, not only me,
Everyone is here for u...
dun make me worry for u...
oppa dun cry naa..
i noe wen u sad u will like MIA
but cannot do this to me T.T
later my heart bomba naa :((
TALK TO ME!

2011-04-24T03:21:00.000-07:00

penny of my thoughts..

wen u said u accept
those fren request, you need to remove our r/s..
my mood totally went down naa...
hmm..kinda hurt~ u noe?!! u dumb dumb!!
but is okay naa i can fully understand (:
i can endure de!! T^T

*go fransisca!! go go go!!!!*

2011-04-23T08:48:00.000-07:00

Every night i been crying like nobody business..

well i have been very happy n sad naa..

im happy cause my evil devil cute oppa

has debut and lots of girls crazy over him~

plus my bf goinna debut soon!

im sad cause my bf told me to

face the facts and to share love with

those girls..

but my love for bro is like

brother n sister naa how to share...

plus those girls treat bro like idol and lover naa

mine is TOTALLY DIFFERENT YOU NOE??!

and if minwoo debut do i have to share my love with those girls??

(T.T ) i miss my oppa so much naa~

i wan talk to him :((

2011-04-21T03:16:00.000-07:00

i want to be like those balloon fly up the to the sky..
someone please help me to get out of here..
i going insane soon..
i want to fulfil my dreams..
i hate my family!! because of money,
everything are in a chaos..
WHY!!! i dun wan to cry anymore..
de pain in my heart who will
share with me..i guess no one..
i need to stay strong cause i still have my lil bro
tt need me to take care of...
anyone?? i feel like shouting...
i hope oppa will fetch me soon...~

2011-04-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

B1A4 tmr their full mv release!! saranghaeyo!! woot!
im actually type out korean words!! wow :X
anyway im gonna support them naa <3
AND JIYOUNG OPPA SO CUTE IN DE MV!!!
feel like pinching his face!! :X

hmm i dunno why there this feeling told me tt
my oppa wont fetch me nxt month..
even though he said nxt month he will come
but he will be busy debuting naa..hmm..
hais.. :X i think i try to think of a way? x.x
im actually crying over smth...
and i keep cry n cry none stop..
only myself noe why am i crying...
cnt stop crying~

nth is as sweet as u~

2011-04-19T03:28:00.000-07:00

hmm..errmm...wad should i blog??
oh ya! my sweetheart yesterday got a high fever naa
omg! :X OMG!!
LOL my reaction very funny :X
anyway tmr last day of putting r/s with
an unknown guy :x i wan bk with sweetheart ^^
hmm..i remember he told me to call him honey haha
but i nvr call :p opps! cos honey star >< honey bee!!
hahha funny hoho~
hmm i hope my bro debut fast naa
after he debut finish, he gonna bring me there
and wen im there, i still need train b4
i join my unnieeeee they all :D
i really hope this time i fly there
with my parent support..*cross finger*
*darling i miss you~*

IMISSYOU!

2011-04-17T05:32:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU!!
my relationship is so unique
cos my sweetheart is at other country :D
and im at SG..cool rite (:
hahha i wan my relationship with him
tt can last long..my fren keep say
dun put a high hope on
this relationship :X
wah...kinda hurtful naa~
hm..hope i can go to korea fast fast
den cn see him le! muack~!
i hope one day u will tell me
how much u miss me and love me too..
just to let u noe tt
im sorry if i had make u cry last week
cause of some thing but i wan u to noe tt
i love you more den
anyone else <3

倪安東Anthony

2011-04-16T04:55:00.000-07:00

im telling u this guy so HOT! way too hot!!
his charm,his voice,omg BEST!!
hmm gonna be his fan hahah!!
hahah not tt crazy fan naa~
hmm...there thing i wan to say but i....
hais forget it >.<
go with the flow naa.. :x

2011-04-15T06:44:00.000-07:00

THIS SLIDE!! MAKE MY HEART ALMOST STOP!!!
my ass fly up naa!! i thought i going to fly out of the float!!
goshh!!!!!!!! T.T after the ride, my stomach
dun feel good @.@ maybe after i eat finish i go play straight away :X
anyway it so fun with my bestfren :D nxt time
i wan go with alot of ppl!! <3
hahha so fun!! but the only thing i cant do is
SCREAM!!!! internal injury~

2011-04-14T04:55:00.000-07:00

wulala~ i miss you i miss you
but do you?? ><
tmr going wild wild wet !!
i was wondering something,
HW AM I GOING TO SHOUT WEN I PLAY THOSE
SCARY THING T^T
my throat!!! arghh~ hope tmr i can have fun ><
oh well...i hope i can go Korea soon!
hmm...i being told to write properly in blog :X
but but this is my style naa OPPA!!!
wee heee!! i bring laughter to ppl
and i love it :D
*sunny sunny fransisca* :>

2011-04-12T01:20:00.000-07:00

You believe her den me.
you believe those fucking photo den talking to me
you say im a flirt.. do you have any idea how much u hurt me??
do i look like a flirt??
i trying my very best to explain to u
yet u reply is "k"??
wad is this???!!!!!!! you are my boyfriend yet u believe
tt unknown girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if this end, im not going to the relationship life anymore..
my love story end here..

2011-04-11T05:06:00.000-07:00

Do you trust me?? Do you believe in her??
Dear boyfriend i hope u believe in me cause im not tt type of girl
i dun do those dirty stuff...
idk wad to do uh...
feel so hopeless wad cn i do???
L.O.V.E?

2011-04-07T04:16:00.000-07:00

Negative things popping out in my mind..
i have been making alot of trouble to my bf...
i dun wan to see him tt sad...
i dun wan set out my bro n sis mad abt my stuff..
i guess i should get out of their life rite??
im totally so hurt rite now
i had been said tt i had sleep with 4 guys..
and i flirt with guys wen i with my sweetheart...
but i really dun have..
why why why??
why u wan do this to me??
wad had i done???
this is my first having a r/s and is going in chaos..
i love him more den anyone if i had a choice i would leave him
and dun wan to see him tt sad...
and so do my bro n sis..
iloveyou all more den anyone~

2011-04-06T07:32:00.001-07:00

im sucj a idiot girl..
actually for get wad ppl say..
they care for me and i actually got and forget!
im such a useless girl tt make my bro upset T.T
im so sorry~ no matter hw much i say sorry
it wont make my heart feel better...
dame sad right now T.T
from today onwards i going to try wear makeup
and look pretty...
i dun wan ppl think tt i cant dress up this seriously sucks!!!

2nd april im attach to u

2011-04-05T06:06:00.000-07:00

On the 2nd april im attach to YOU
my first relationship!!
well all these year i have been waiting for the right one
i think i found him aye? :X *shy shy*
while i think it worth it!! hahha
Wish upon the stars, i can last long with him (:
and fly to korea asap ><

i had a nicest brother ever

2011-03-27T04:37:00.001-07:00

The first time i meet you,
i don't know a thing about you
you been protecting my dream
wen im down u there for me,
wen i cried you make me laugh
you make me realise that youre a very good brother
but wen i knew you about to leave me for years
i had no idea wad i should do
maybe i had rely on you too much.
This time im going to try to be brave
i will forever remember wad you said
i wont let go my dreams too,
gonna support u no matter where i am (:

2011-03-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

think think think~
i really dunno wad to do...
i gip up..
i dun wan to continue to live anymore
it hurt alot...hais...
i dun wan to be alone TT

star fairy

2011-03-17T05:12:00.000-07:00

wish upon de stars :

Take me away from this earth!

it hurt so much..i really hate this kind of feeling..

wad had i done that i must suffer this kind life??

i want to become a star and forever watch over my dear little brother..

i want to leave this earth and went up to the sky without and pain..

wish upon de stars:

my dreams, will it be fulfil?

to become a singer is it that bad??

to become a singer is it a joke??

to me all of them above are not...

DREAMs, Star fairy will you stand by my side and

fight with me to fulfil it?? i dun wan to die not in peace..

each person born to this have its own reason..

whats mine den??

is it lost lots of friends and end up im all alone??

family not prefect...little brother low IQ..

i have to take care of him in future till im dead...

fren?

2011-03-09T06:44:00.001-08:00

it does not matter if u wan treat me like this anot

but as a friend just because of this thing u wan ignore me?

fuck off okay? seriously..u should not treat me like this!!

you not happy den ignore me?! wtf is this??

wake up dude!!

yes i believe them so wad you cn do?

just ignore me all the way??

you noe wen u believe someone, and ur fren dun believe u

those feeling ma??

i believe them,i dun think they will lie to me.

my hearts told me tt they cn be trusted..

even if my heart is blind, these few days they the one who cheer me up

i keep tell myself do not let anyone noe u are suffering..

i just keep quiet..you have no idea how much im suffering with my family..

this is my dream of cause i wont gib up..

u have ur dreams too..why cant i??

im not a liar

2011-03-05T07:25:00.001-08:00

anyone out there believe me??

anyone believe me??

pls anyone??

i dun lie T.T

wad for i lie to u this type of thing??

im not a liar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STOP SAYING IM A LIAR!!!!

had enough of you all!! seriously

why u all say im a liar!!

2011-03-03T05:36:00.000-08:00

i hate liar...i really hate it
please dun destroy my life..
dun destroy my dreams....
i really WAN IT THIS SO MUCH
i beg u mummy...
if u dun let me go i dunno wad i cn in here
i think i will perish on this earth n make u regrate from stopping me from going to
korea...mummy please...i beg u...
dying to me is a fear but pain for awhile den im gone in this world..
without my dreams idk wad cn i do..
if u stop me idk wad i will do..
if im not around in this world,
DEAR MUMMY N DADDY I HATE U!!!!!
FOR LYING TO ME..I CURSE U !

tengyeon bro come back!

2011-03-01T07:32:00.000-08:00

TengYeon bro tell me this is not true!!
this is a joke! you cant leave me alone!
You said im a gundu queen, yes i am
and i need you to protect me too!!!
why u so heartless left me here!! you said no one cn bully me
only you but u left me!! why u allow other ppl to bully me?!!
WHY!!!! YOU MEAN ALOT TO ME BRO!!!!!
COME BACK TO ME N THE OTHERS!!!
you still promise me tt u will meet me!!!
im a big gundu! dun leave me!!!
i need you!!!! dun leave me would u T.T
dun go the heaven tt so early.u haven see me become famous..
as long you are happy i dun mind how u going to bully me
just dun leave me!!! YOU THIS STUPID EMO KING!!!!!! COME BACK!!!!!!!
i wan you to continue saying me you wan bomb me!! ask me to explode!!! and im a gundu queen!!
come back!!!

tengyeon

2011-02-28T02:38:00.000-08:00

Someone told me to cherish a person very much
i do cherish him but he choose to leave me..
now im very worry abt him cos he met an accident.
he said good bye to me n forever
but to me he mean alot to me..
he a special guy to me..
he the one who make me forget abt him..
please be alright TengYeon bro..
i wan you to continue bully me n say im a gundu person..
PLEASE be alright.. T.T

parent suck

2011-02-22T06:15:00.000-08:00

nvr ever trust ur own parent words..
she told me tt if is real i let u go..
now? she take bk her words
same goes to him..
is it wrong to follow my dream?
dont everyone have a dream?
we have different dream n mine is to be a singers
and yours is different den mine..
and now u bloody say no?
u betray ur own daughter trust.

do not trust ppl

2011-02-17T02:42:00.000-08:00

im crying like one cry baby..
u noe why? manager dun wan me
cos i very troublesome!
i also dun like to trouble ppl
i also wan fly there asap
tis is not wad i wan...
From the start i always lost trust in myself
till then i meet them
and i have faith in myself once again
yet now 17feb2011 i lost trust in myself..
once again i wont trust in myself anymore
it HURT alot!!!!! it do really hurt!!
i also have to listen to my mum
i her only daughter why cnt u seem to understand my feeling??
i dun wan upset my own mother
wen i fly to korea i wan her to support me..
tis take times.. manager u say i rude?
manager u dunno me well how cn u say im rude??
if A small girl dream is to become a singer and her hopes is ur hand
and u destroy it..u feel happy??
this is my first time i saw a person tt so heartless like u.
im going to end tis

2011-02-17T02:19:00.000-08:00

welll Good luck for me ya!
i have to be at korea on mon if not my name be cancel!!
thank you Manager! *bow to you* T.T
hais...hw to fly there without an air ticket?? :O
GUESS NOT GOING KOREA , my dream BABOO le!!!

2011-02-14T07:37:00.000-08:00

Dreams.

Valentine Day today which also my Birthday!!!!
Thanks guys for the birthday wish~
well i spent my day with my cousin at
the ZONEX!! arcade!! :D
took alot of photo~ (:

my birthday wish is:
I hope my mum allow me to go Korea to persuade my dreams.
im going to seize this chance~
just hope they wont let me go (:
anyway~! my bro like to tease me (T.T)
but hahha kinda fun~!! <3
Love you TengYeon bro n HaeYeon sis

2011-02-08T07:03:00.000-08:00

MUACKS!!!

feeling fade? pri memory~

2011-02-08T05:37:00.000-08:00

well just now suddenly wan to go bk to pri school mind
and think of the songwe sang b4 at Pri school..hhahass
dame cute!! i n huiyu keep think like siao
but both of us think of our chinese lesson there
this GUY teacher bring his guitar and sang song with us (:
title is Guan Hua Fan Shi~
bring back lots of memory naa..
hmm..deep inside me, im scare to lose my 2 best fren which
is Jasmine N jacq..
gotta this feeling tt feeling going to fade sonn T.T
as in friendship~ :x
hais.. :c
BUT I WONT GIB UP MY DREAMS!
Got this feeling tt my jiamin going to cry
if i go korea D:
my stupid jiamin!!! ^^ :p

2011-02-06T18:10:00.000-08:00

Got one girl pose as me TT
now she so happy go korea le
wad happen was manager send wrong address!!!
D: fuck u poser!!! plus still got the dare to call de company!!
say hi im fransisca -.- FUCK YOU!!! T.T
i hope u sent bk!!!!

2011-02-06T05:47:00.001-08:00

rite now im bring told to go Korea @ 15 feb
which is after my birthday!
ohh go!! pls pls!!
wad i wan for my birthday present is to go Korea and
train to become a kpop stars..
I SWEAR I NVR DREAMING!!
please!!!!! God!!! i beg u!
this is my chance!!! HaeYeon sis
helped me a lot n pls i dun wan disappoint her!!
she helped me alot!! pls~? my birthday present just let my mum allow me
to go korea..pls im already 17 le i cn tc of myself!!
and i swear i will call my mum n webcam!! pls!!!! (TT)
miracle pls happen on me!!

2011-01-28T05:16:00.000-08:00

well i got a band and im suppose to go korea train
but i have to let my mum allow me to go first..
i will hold tis chance..even if my mum dun allow me to go,
i will still go..im sorry..tis is my chance mum
i dun wan be a normal ppl..since i no longer study may as well
i go for my dream rite?..
JYJY Seo Yoon Hye!!! :D

2011-01-24T07:11:00.000-08:00

well wenever saw couple say ily all those thing,
i was wondering wen cn it be my turn??
be single for almost 16 half years already naa..
hmm i will wait for my turn cos i haven 21 yet (: not tt old ya..
romance will come to me slowy cos im valentine baby (:
Tme gonna appeal for ite course well i hope i cn get in
althought is not the course i wan :/ but for de sake of my future i will strive for it!!
well take this chance to say sorry to HUIYU cos
i told i be able go to shatec with u yet,
i cant..im sorry :C thousand of sorry!!!

if i be able to go to ite
my nxt step will be a singer(:
hope god tis time on my side..
i wont ask for anything including love
but my dreams pls...

idoit me

2011-01-22T05:55:00.000-08:00

In de first place i knew tt i cnnt confess to guy
but i still do it cos my dearest fren told me tt i should.
Thanks (: but in de end all the answer are all de same..
i confess to him no reply..ignore me..GREAT!!
im feeling so hurt rite nw..i really dun wan to be sad anymore..
just wan to be the one tt i like tt all...
im REALLY SUCH A FOOL!!!
I SHOULD NOT TELL HIM!!!
SEOYOONG YOU Are SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!
im feeling SUPER hurt rite nw...
feel like cutiing my own wrist...
why love dun come to me!?
bye..dun feel like typing anymore..
hurt too much...
I WONT CONFESS ANYMORE..
it wont happen again..

-M I A- bye

To my brother tengyeon

2011-01-21T01:41:00.000-08:00

welll...gonna hide everything from u
even my feeling for u (:
keep my emotion n feeling with my heart

ite suck cord

2011-01-17T03:23:00.000-08:00

I have decided to gib up le...!!!!!!!!
always thoguht i have a chance to go in ite..
but they just fucking gay dun wan gib me a chance to go in
to a course tt i dun like!!!
wads wrong with my grades!
L1B2 6 lerh!!!!!!!!!! wad u wan for me!
i still need to study u noe!!!!cb ite!!
i need to take care of my younger brother in future
why u just cnt fucking good enough to gib me a chance?!!
u gonna ruin my future!!!!!!!

scolding abt myself

2011-01-10T07:19:00.000-08:00

FUTURE FUTURE FUTURE!!! -.-
pls la stop asking me abt my future
cause i never think abt it :/
hmm..dame fucking cb i noe -.-
but not my fault aye..!
i only want to have fun :x
haish dame stupid ya!!
i already gonna 17 soon in 1 month times!!
wth!! why am i still think abt playing!!! -.-
dear fransisca ng!!!
pls stop ur stupid mindset abt having fun uh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cb i dame not happy abt myself!!
i have to take care my own abnormal brother!!
still think abt fun den ur future bye bye liao la!!!
cb fransisca!!! :@
*may think im crazy~*

2011-01-04T19:52:00.001-08:00

OPPA..i never get in the course i wan again.
and intake for jan has close...
wad should i do?? i dun dare go private school
without the fren i noe..i dun like new fren!
im SCARE!!!!!!!
oppa has gone to korea to form a band..
all de best aye.. D:
has been missing him from yesterday till now
and even feel like crying..
oppa...u say i will get in the course i wan
and have faith in me but i...
fail u :c cant get in the course i wan..
my future wad will happen? :/

to become an idol?

2011-01-02T04:58:00.000-08:00

my mum asked me this question
" what u wan to do for ur future?""
noe wad i reply? i say idk....
seriously i don't know...
well..can say im not independent ba...
but wad i wan is to sing..and become an idol like
yoseob n hongki.
they sing with feelings with it and i wan just to be like them!
i wan go to Korea too! cause Korea have de high chance
to become an idol..SUPER HIGH CHANCE...
but..i noe this chance will nvr be mine..
not even in a millions chance rite?...
Luck nvr always on my side even love..
hahha (:

2010 gona over soon~

2010-12-26T05:38:00.000-08:00

Boo! hahhass (:
Rite now im waiting for 2011 cause im going to join the adults life!!
Time sure pass dame fast (:
I will be joining Pastry N Baking @ ITE..
is Pastry N Baking no future??
i thought we should de course we like ?:s
am i going to have NO FUTURE??!!!!!!! o.o
hmm...can anyone tell me??
im very scare abt my own future!
all my fren they choose business or design..
WAD AM I GOING TO DO?!!!!!

Im really hope i will have a bright future!
God please bless me n watch over me :)
well.. ITE see you there!

2010-12-02T06:36:00.000-08:00

http://scanationsg.wordpress.com/

2010-11-27T05:16:00.000-08:00

Everything tt i wanted to have it to happen but it just wont happen...
Fine..i give up..
That guy is so look like you
but tt guy not as heartless as you..
Wish u have tt half of him...
So that u wont hurt me like tt time hw u hurt me..
But time wont bring me to the day where u totally left me..
Thanks to u i gain an interesting real life experience (:
i wont make history repeat again..

2010-11-15T01:01:00.000-08:00

They are so cool :D

Totally in love with them B2ST!!!

2010-11-14T06:19:00.000-08:00

Taken @ sentosa * too bored le!

back to post?

hmm....yesterday went to sentosa..hahah fun?....

first time working is @ redhill there, telemaketing~
TIRED!!!!! 8 HOURS call no stop!

i last for 3 days...LOL hahha!!

i dun think i cn work tt long...worried abt my future~

dun think i cn work for ppl lo...

This coming thursday is my prom night!! woot!!

hahha

cant wait...hmmm...spent alot of money

make me heart pain...*wish to have a rich bf...

LOL dreaming only!!!

havoc"k"ers!!

2010-10-29T07:39:00.000-07:00

im missing my 4t1 classmates
although we less talk in class
but we still united...
well 18 nov going to be our last time together
gonna cherish this time as we only had 3 hours stay together!!!
Got this feeling that everyone of us will cry
but for those heartless one they wont (:
guess they not tt heartless aren't they?? hahha
hmm...really hope they will remember me....
maybe they wont?? :c they would?? :>
haiz hope they will!!
MISS U GUYS HAVOC"K"ERS!!
Love u guys.... 4t1 2010....

hmmmm

2010-10-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

hahha back to blog!!
as usual quarrel with my mum again :D
she asked me to tell everyone tt my mum has dead!! ^^
woot! FUCK!!!(--)
*childish...u all may think im childish
but at a certain point
some thing i can be very mature at..
u nvr noe ^^...
now is to wait for my N level result~
still need to go bk to school till 27 oct!!
WTA!!!! arghhh!!!!!
after school end..next will be working time!!
hahha!!
tmr going to bugis..cant wait!!

loner

2010-10-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

You can choose to be a loner and
choose ur own path carefully..
Sometimes how i wish to alone n
be a nobody business...
but
sometimes i wan someone to noe that I'm exist in this world...
feel like shouting : Talk to me! I'm here! HELLO!!..
just anyone??please?...

cheee ke booo!

2010-10-06T04:41:00.000-07:00

firstly i would wan to say sorry to those guy tt i had beaten b4 :p
the true is i just wan to protect myself from all guys..
SORRY SENSEI!! (:
from now onwards i wont do tt anymore....
hmmm...today maths paper 1
and it was okay okay (:
haiz hopefully i can pass ya!!
got back my N level science MCQ paper..
my science cher marked mine n is was......
okay dun wan say it -.- *WTA!!
i got confident in science paper 2 !!
can pass de rite? :D
Friday is de day to say bye bye to all my subjects
as it will be my last paper doing maths!!
AND
i will wait for my result de!!!!
gib me a PASS PASS PASS PASS PASS PASS!!!
PASS ALL MY 6 SUBJECTS!!

ks 18 birthday

2010-09-30T05:06:00.000-07:00

Today is my cousin 18th birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY K.S!! :D
we went kbox to celebrate his birthday and take picture like mad!!
plus sing till no voice! but it was fun!!
wish u all ur dream come true that u had wish for just now..

well.., tmr is my last day of pass up my N level art work~
wah!! got to do my super very best ya ^^
next monday is my science N level paper!!
time sure pass fast and
saturday i got sort call job interview (:
well ALL THE BEST TO ME YA!!

art work!! arghghhh!

2010-09-27T03:44:00.000-07:00

i told myself to forget de feeling i had in you
and
i did it!
but there one thing which i not happy with was
you u nvr tell me the answer that i seeking for...
No offence...why de girl tt u like is de country tt i hate the most?!
is she better den me? i think so...
wadever~! anti china ppl!!!
but to some china ppl only :*
gonna forget u and move on ^^

well..,my art cher just sms-ed me to tell me some last min thing!
tmr he will be meeting us after school to check on our artwork!
shittt~!! i haven prepare!!!
meet my doom this time!!
chiong now~!! byeee!

Kuroshitsuji Season 3 faster lai!

2010-09-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

i wonder why ciel so handsome so does his bulter sebastian michaelis!!
season 3 faster come out!! i wan to noe more abt ciel become demon
with sebastian journey! eternity love this anime !!
Got to do my N level work! byeee~! (:

vampire knight season 3!

2010-09-25T06:37:00.000-07:00

Guess wad! i cant wait for vampire knight season 3 :D
they say it will come out on Dec :((
sad case!! waited for tt anime dame long!!
waiting for :

Hakuouki shinsengumi kitan season 2
Kaichou maid- sama season 2
07 ghost season 2
Vampire night season 3
Kuroshitsuji season 3
And lots!!!

*wink *wink!!!

dream abt lemon kor

2010-09-22T07:16:00.001-07:00

these few days wad ever i had dream about,
i keep forget but one day,
i dream abt you!
i remember de next day i wake up!
hope to have u back soon lemon kor!! :D

22sep~

2010-09-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

Today de moon was so big n bright (:
how i wish i can touch de moon even for one sec!
Today i really thought my daddy had sold me laptop away!!
but lucky for me
he only sent for repair~
now Window 7!! wooootss~
AUDI AUDI!! yes!!
(: hahhha!!!
opps~ Nlevel first ya! ^^
hahha!

gib up on mr LYC?

2010-09-16T04:24:00.000-07:00

u go ur own way
i go my own way..
That wad i going to say
but if still can,
we cn be fren...
is ur choice....

prom night!

2010-09-14T04:37:00.001-07:00

hmmm~ cant wait for my graduation nights (:
Can go shopping with my 2 dearest fren!! HAHAH!!
shopping!shopping!shopping!
makeup!makeup!makeup!
woot!!~
cant wait ! argh!!!!^^

but rite now N level first =.=
hmmm....*speechless :x

blah life~

2010-09-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

wont ask for anything but simple and just nice (:
asking too much for wad i wan it wont do me any good...
tag along with wad i had rite now ^^
life are meant to be this way and is hard to get rid of it..
so errmm...ya...LOL...*Random

time will take us there

2010-09-08T03:50:00.000-07:00

Everthing have to take one step by a time (:
so errm...i gonna keep it up!!
got to keep it cool n steady!
Mr cutie L pls gib me some time alright..
Gonna work hard for mending our friendship back together again^^

am i still having this feeling for u

2010-09-07T04:10:00.000-07:00

UPDATE!! :D
07September2010
Chinese LC! errmm how to say ar...
is like easy and average?
there are some 2 to 3 question bother me! arghh!
hmm..tmr is English writing~ till 11plus~
Got two paper! errmm...!! hope i can pass!!
got to memorise de format~!
ACCOUNT,FORMAL,INFORMAL,SPEECH and REPORT WRITING!!
geez!! Gambatte fransisca ng cai yun!!

Today gib my co-form reacher e graduation money..*bye bye $55~
Got to dress up beautiful!! but need someone to drive me there!
take mrt there feel weird~!! arghh! still long!!
N level first!!

first day of N level

2010-09-06T04:53:00.000-07:00

Today first day of N level (:
dame nervous but de paper so so...
thanks jayden for EARLY in the morning text me n say good luck (:
*loves!
But also my other fren too (:
dame tmr Chinese LC got to dig my ear ...
hahahha :p
N level JIAYOUJIAYOU!! HOOSHOOO!!!

2010-09-03T05:29:00.000-07:00

Lots of things has happen yet i still hold on to it..
Lots of things had happen n this time i saw lots of ppl
hidden their true colour and it show out this time...
it suck to be in Swiss Cottage Secondary School n in the class i had in now (4t1)
i just wish time will reverse back n go back to my class 2t2 and forever be in that class
till we graduate..
we had lots of fun during tt time n even though we make lots of trouble
but we still united as one..

2= Too
T= tough
2= to fight!!

But i did not regret about one thing in this year class,
which is i finally found 2 special fren whose truly care about me..
Thank a million times..(:

普通朋友??

2010-08-30T04:07:00.000-07:00

Hey mr cutie L (: im in love with euu right now (:
wenever i saw u,my heart beat very fast!!
even if we nvr face to face see each other.. ♥
it has been 5 months we nvr contact each other n see each other.
But im still happy tt u did reply back to me ♥
im grateful ..seriously THANKS A MILLION TIMES....
i noe that we are impossible but still hope to become ur close friend
that we can hang out together and share our feeling together
like wad we did de past time..
i will try my very best to become ur close fren alright? (:
gib me this one last chance..

-missing my 2nd brother...
-miss how u protect me since small...
-miss de way u pat on my head...
-miss de way u are ,hope u are fine at there...
Left 1 more year for u to come back..do take care of urself ^^

knowing was a mistake

2010-08-29T02:50:00.000-07:00

if i were to noe tt making fren with u was a mistake,
i will stop contacting with euu...
i just wanted to make more fren tt all..

why do u have to say all those rubbish??!!
" once fransisca make fren with _____ and all de bad things happen to me"
wad this for?...
if u really hate me tt much, pls shut the fuck off!! or ask ur own mouth to shut up!!
alright (:
u just dont seem to grow up!

sick~

2010-08-25T04:42:00.000-07:00

right now i feel sick~ headache and sore throat!!
haiz...got to recover back!! plus sweating in cold sweat!! (xx)
Nlevel is coming!!

i decided to run away from all those r/s stuff...
i noe i not that i not suitable for r/s things
wenever i love a guy so deeply, in de end he
walk away from me..
so right now i going to walk away from u
and let other girls to have de chance to be with euu...
And i noe that u still cant forget that person..
but im gonna treat u as friend..

la~

2010-08-24T05:02:00.001-07:00

Sore throat!! pain!!
shouldn't shout tt loud during PE lesson~ haiz~
dame pain now!
but the most impressive thing was tt only my right side of my throat in pain...
cos i shout only from my right side of my throat~

CHINESE !!

2010-08-18T06:27:00.000-07:00

sian sia!! my Chinese exam from 80 plus drop to 60 plus den now 59!!
WAD DE ****!!!!!
arghh!! i not happy with de result sia!!
dame fucking bu suan !!
ARGHHH!!!!!!!! #$%^&*
FRANSISCA NG ! U MUST GET BACK UR CHINESE RESULT!!
EIGHTY PLUS!!!!!!!!!! *ROAR!!GEEZZZ!
now need to improve my Chinese and maths!!
-serious mood-

YOG

2010-08-17T05:40:00.000-07:00

Today was my first time to attend Singapore event (: YOG!!
wah sia de swimmer dame fast n COOL uh!!
cassie saw one ang mo guy dame shuai
but i still cant spot where de guy she said..
The only word that i can say for today is
BEST!!
swimming rock!!
although i swim dame slow~ xx
2 days i nvr went to school dame bored n slack(:
tmr got to go school le ^^hmmm
SSSS....IIII....AAA....NNN...!!(sian)

arghh wenever i watch B2ST MV,i went high!!!
ohhhh...gosh dame shuai uh!! bleah :p

13thaug2010 (devil day )

2010-08-14T04:05:00.000-07:00

The rains that fall right outside my window right now..,
is de tears that hidden quite well inside my small sweet heart..
Hoping to stand outside with the heavy rain so that no one would noe ii was crying...
And wash away all my sadness into e river
im trying my very best to keep everything clam n easy...
but it didn't went so well on the 13th (..mood swing..)
i should not have come to school on that day..
it should be devil day but why has it turn out to be a
unlucky day for me (....)
did i done anything wrong,if i have pls let me know...
-(trying to make more friends that all )-

2010-08-13T03:35:00.000-07:00

if u wan to become a loudspeaker den do it...
why do u have to tell the whole wordl that he came to my house
n he like me??...
WAD DO U WAN TO GET?!
switch off ur loudspeaker can ma??
just diam!!
because of this thing i really dun feel like contacting him anymore...

2010-08-12T07:49:00.000-07:00

in love with b2st ^^
they melted my frozen heart into a water!!~

hmmm....

2010-08-12T06:13:00.000-07:00

hoho!! finally change my blogskin and my song!~
got back my result and it was suck!!
maths fail!! WTH??!!!!
dame!! hw i wish i cn pass my math!!
3 more makrs to pass sia!!
dame me sia!! nvr check!!
AND
very thanks to this person who ask me not to study!! :)
nbm! Nlevel i must chiong!! xx
i think i going to become nerdy soon~

2010-08-08T07:37:00.001-07:00

i got the feeling tt i dream abt this thing rite now...and i going back to the past soon

2010-08-05T04:41:00.000-07:00

Today went to watched The Last Airbender ^^
dame nice sia!! The guy dame cool sia!!!
lota of actors look like my classmate!!
dame funny uh (:
Today i finally noe something!!
i always watch drama there one stalker who always stalk their lover like super glue!!
now in reality there one in my world!!
dame scary!! (x,x)
althought today was my last paper prelim,
i still have to study hard for my N level which is coming soon!!

2010-08-04T04:08:00.000-07:00

Today math paper 2, was dame hard plus i done lots of careless mistake!! wth!!
my 3 mark gone just like that!!
TOO HARD LE!!
but i wont gib up de (: tmr last paper !!
which is science paper 1 n 2 (:
got to study volume 1 n 2!! ouhh nooo!!
jyjy!! ^^

2010-08-02T03:43:00.000-07:00

gosh gonna to study dame hard tis time!!
tmr math paper one le!!
JYJY!!
today cpa n Chinese paper so so :D
hahha :p
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The promises u make to me, is it a white lies?
The words that u said to me, is it all not counted?
The fun we had together, have u forget?
The laughter we had, had u forgotten?
The moon that we love, had u really forgotten abt it?
The song u played for me, have u forgotten abt it melody?
The sweet talks that i always receive from u, FORGOTTEN?!!
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You promise to be with me wen im sad but u left me..
Thanks for everything..u wont noe how it feel to be treated tt way...

shadow

2010-07-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

( It was the time wen i was small ^^ cute hor :P )

This photo make me feel like i am old now!!

it was taken 12 years agao (:

time flies fast!!

just a blink of eye and now is 2010 le!!

Right now i am preparing for my prelim art which

is on this thursday!! so as my chinese N level oral (:

GAMBATTE!

i really hope i cn past all my subject!!

and go to the course that i wan which are PASTRY and BAKING

hmm...CAN'T WAIT!! :D -haaha-

2010-07-23T03:58:00.000-07:00

feel kinda bad now.. :/
today got mock test but everyone keep tall Mr sha tt we cant do,so difficult
and blah blah...
He like kinda of sad and disappointment in us.
This is wad i felt uh...hiaz..
volume 1 text book i nvr bring to school...
so some i dun really noe hw to do...
hmmm...i got to buck up right now b4 is too late...
Exam is around de corner le...
prelim nxt week and N level is 6 more sundays to go!
OH MY TIAN...well gotta JyJy le (:
dun wan waste anymore time le!
if i fail, my future cn say bye bye le...
i still wan my future to continue till my death :)